You feel you can no longer be yourself in that person presence,
You fear their reaction whenever you speak,
You fear you may upset them due to their weak interpretation of your words,
They may not realize it, but deep in their heart they already think the worst of you so they are on the defense,
You try to defend your every breath to someone you thought knew you and loved you unconditionally.
Inauthentic...fake...counterfeit...defensiveness...rooted in the fear of man...lies that came from the evil one and they were believed.
Its not about everyone seeing eye-to-eye on everything but that you can see differently and still love each other.
I love this! I got this off of Dawn's blog and I am sure most of us feel the same...I know I do. (thanks Dawn for articulating so well)
"How is it that a large portion of the people think I'm a self-righteous uptight narrow minded know-it-all black or white no shades of gray debbie downer biggot...... while an equally large portion... thinks I'm the biggest loosey goosey go with the flow neither here nor there luke warm whateverfloatsyourboat compromiser hypocrite heathen?
Then, there's those who know me."